Tips for Distinguishing Between Self Care & Self Enabling - Yesterday, I realized I hadn’t left my room except to eat, go to the gym, and get coffee. Usually this situation would be cause for concern for me but, strangely, I realized I had actually had a really wonderful and productive day staring incessantly at my computer screen. This led me down a path I […]
Automattic: 4 Year Anniversary - This is the loudest thought in my head when I think about 4 years of working at Automattic – “How did my world become so vast? How did I get so lucky?”. My only fear is that my luck will run out as this opportunity feels so rare. Looking back, my world was so terribly small […]
absorbed entirely - “You are constantly told in depression that your judgment is compromised, but a part of depression is that it touches cognition. That you are having a breakdown does not mean that your life isn’t a mess. If there are issues you have successfully skirted or avoided for years, they come cropping back up and stare […]
Unfinished - Friend: “Why did you come back to San Diego of all places?” Me: “Something feels unfinished – like a book I started, put down, and still desperately want to know the ending of.” Friend: “What feels unfinished?” Me: “I don’t know yet… I haven’t been able to figure that part out.” Why did I come […]
Recalibrating - In the last 24 hours, I’ve hit a wall in the form of sentences becoming harder to write and read, thoughts becoming pure fog, and my body wanting to just remain in a lazy curl in bed. I’m running through my coping mechanisms like I usually do my to do lists. I can’t quite tell […]
The shade in which I currently sit - I was chatting with a friend this past week about whether there might be a “nomad gene” for folks who can’t stop moving. He quipped that if it exists, “you for sure have it”. I laughed – I definitely don’t. My default nature is one of introversion and routine. I marvel at myself for doing what […]
At the whim of others - I normally don’t skip dinner. I think somewhere deep inside I knew that if I did eat, I wouldn’t go to the gym. I’ve had a rough time getting back to “normalcy” after 2 months in Europe. My patience with myself was wearing thin so I changed and headed to the gym. 2 hours and […]
Cat-spiration - I’ve never been particularly fond of cats. I don’t fully trust them. Dogs seem oblivious enough to never purposefully be malicious. Cats seem smart enough to know how to draw lines I might not see coming. There are two cats though that have captured my attention and love. Sadly, they are my coworker’s cats! I’m […]
Misophonia - I was randomly poking through 23andme after getting an email from them about new relatives when I saw this report. At long last – I could prove my uncontrollable hatred of sound! Truly, this was a RELIEF to see. For as long as I can remember, this has been an issue for me. I always […]
Sifting through digital clutter - What follows are my favorite pictures thus far from my travels through Portugal, Spain, and Switzerland with my mom. I’ve been in Europe nomading since March 10th which blows my mind! I’ve seen so much that it’s hard for me to process it all until I look back on these pictures. 90% of these are […]