“There are lots of things we never understand, no matter how many years we put on, no matter how much experience we accumulate.” -Haruki Murakami
I used to be of the belief that all aspects of life will inevitably start to make more sense as time wears on. I now believe it’s likely that rather than understanding things better I’ve just become more adept at accepting ambiguity. Rather than placing a memory firmly in a category in my head like I would a blog post, I become okay with leaving it “uncategorized” as a category in and of itself. I’d rather leave a memory uncategorized than force it into a place in my heart that it doesn’t belong or that doesn’t do the memory justice whether good or bad.
& then there are those rare moments of clarity where a pattern becomes clear, new categories are created, lessons are learned, dots are connected – until then my uncategorized grows.